I don't like you , BUT i love you

Valentine's day is about to knock on the hearts of people who are in love in irony to this knock off the pockets and hearts of those who are in a not so divine one. I don’t believe in being in a relationship or should better say I can’t but yes I have fallen in love with some women which I would like to share today.

I know this woman for about 13 years but I really talked to her one or two years ago. She is crazy and for over a year she made a false impression on my mind that she is smart. She listens my every pointless theory (in which I myself don't believe). She appreciates them and actually makes me fell into the complete falsification that they are actually good. When I tell somebody else that stuff thinking that it is cool, I make a fool of myself. Whenever I put any problem in front of her she puts all her efforts (unintentionally though) to make it worse and when I tell her that I think I was doing the wrong thing (which she suggested or agreed earlier) she tells me, ” Yes, you are doing wrong I was thinking the same ”. I still tell her my all problems and I don’t know why. She contributes her every bit to make my problems more complicated and make me feel like a dork. BUT I still love her. Sometimes when I call her and she is talking to her boyfriend she disconnects his call and talks to me. She cannot see it but it brings a smile on my face. It makes me feel,” YES friendship is a thing and yes it is much higher than LOVE relationships”. I love it when she does not try to defend her boyfriend and sometimes even contributes when I make fun of him. She sometimes calls me, knowing that we have no topic to talk about and she is going to be bored. She still does the “aur bata” talks... No matter how witty I make any stuff or change the sense of the topic even be hypocritical she actually understands how I feel. I love her for that.

I know this woman since the beginning of my life and I still don’t know her at all. She was bossy and gets angry at every second thing that I do. She used to beat me up a lot when I was a kid. I was a very sweet kid, I used to bring my feelings inside me, out. I blame her to make me a heartless douche bag. We never talk about our friends or our college life and she never shares her experiences with me until they belong to academics. She could have been a real support for me to teach me how to behave with girls but she turned me into an IDIOT. I don’t like her at all. Now she is changed and she comes to my so called “STUDY ROOM” when she needs internet and when I am not around she cleans my room and puts my stuff in almirah , align my books in cupboard and I hate her for that.. She doesn’t know that she makes it more difficult to find stuff. She has a facebook account too and we have a pact that we will not add each other and indulge in eachother’s friend circle but I sometimes pay a visit to her profile, no not for stalking, just to see if someone is bothering her because I know guys are dogs. I have started understanding her a bit now and I have started to love her. She hides my errors and blunders from my parents. Sometimes indirectly she tries to tell me the wrong things I have done. Whenever my mom is not at home she never makes me feel like I am missing something. She even bears all my tantrums.

Last but not the least, this woman, I know since the time I didn’t use to breathe. She is the sweetest person I have ever met. Her TV habits are frustrating as hell and her attempts to make me love green vegetables !! yuk why would somebody do that. It is against human rights. When I was a child I used to dance really very well. She used to show off me to every single guest and sometimes even when we were the guests. I’ll never forgive her for that. But when I am low she sits beside me and she puts her hand on my head and she says nothing, every time I end up with my head on her laps. She asks me if it is about studies and I never reply, I think she knows or atleast have an idea but she never says anything. Instead she says,” your hairs are dry, use oil”. And I say nothing. I personally hate silence and feel awkward in silence but when I come back in my normal crazy mood and think about it I feel like the best moment that can come in my life.

I love you all for loving me “needlessly”..

There are many complements and sweet things about the women I love but I will not mention because some of them will never read this. There are many complaints too but I will not write it too because some of those lovely women will read it ;) :P